What Kind of Student Am I?


Guess who graduates in a month? Me. To some extent this makes me happy. Here’s what doesn’t make me happy:

I’ll be graduating in the neighborhood of a 3.1 GPA.

“That’s not so bad,” you may be thinking. And in a technical sense, you’re absolutely right. It means I’m a B student who had made slightly more A’s than C’s. What’s more, I haven’t made a D my entire college career.

But I look at those numbers and think that they could be a whole lot better.

I’ve made the mistake many other college students have. I have spread myself too thin. I’ve done too much, and I haven’t learned how to say no. I haven’t lived my life with intention, with art, with grace.

With it, I’ve exploded into a million different directions. Overload. I haven’t had time to focus on what’s important, or to even focus at all. Basically, I’ve been too busy. I haven’t had any time for myself, because I’ve wanted so desperately for others to see me as relevant.

And now they have.

But this is not what makes life worth living. In fact, it’s the single thing that makes life not worth living.

I am not a B student. I am an A student.

I will be starting graduate school immediately after finishing my bachelor’s degree. Once that happens, I am simply focusing on three things. These will be my priorities in this order.

1. My relationship with Christ.
2. My girlfriend and my family.
3. My college and its associated job.

So that’s it. That will be my life. No more spreading myself too thin.

I am tired.

I am tired of not being able to make friends because I am too busy.
I am tired of not being able to write as much as I want.
I am tired of not having time to relax and have time for myself.
I am tired of not having time to help my family when they need it.
I am tired of not being able to advance my life.
I am tired of being tired all of the time.

What you will so in a month is a restoration of my life’s priorities. I will live with direction and purpose, and God is going to help me do this.

I have the capability of making excellent grades.
I know I can make all A’s and have a 4.0 GPA in graduate school.
And with my life organized, I know I can do this.



Matthew Estes

Matthew Estes currently exists in the ether between graudate student and full-time worker. One day he hopes to be a full-time novelist and blogger, but until that day comes he spends his time playing video games, eating pizza, and being with his soon-to-be wife. However, he has yet to do all three at the same time. Bucket list stuff, you know.