A Romanticized Notion

 

You’ve been here before, and here you’ve returned to this very spot. At a crossroads in life, you find yourself unhappy with what you’re becoming and the places you’re headed. You stare out, deep into the night, and waves of discontentment suddenly come rolling in like breakers into the side of a cliff. You’ve traveled the same roads over and over again, wearing them down along with you. You’re ready for a change.

As you look up at the blue sky that you used to love, you think of how you once found happiness, but it was so long ago you can hardly remember how it felt. You were in love once, with a person or a place or a calling. Your future was so bright. But now responsibility doesn’t feel as grand as it used to be, and neither do the people you feel compelled to be responsible for. Looking for an escape, your mind suddenly opens to the possibilities. There’s a great big world out there, you think, rife with opportunities to take away the pain and give me something I can appreciate. I can find peace and comfort, abandoning this drudgery of a life for something I truly love. I don’t have to take this anymore.

The logical thoughts and feelings of escape soothe your hurt and broken heart. But who are you, really? Who are you, right here and right now? Who are you here to influence? Do you truly want to find something new in your life, or are you simply trying to run from your problems. Unbury yourself from the weight of your confusing emotions and ask yourself if it’s truly the place that is depressing, or is it all in how you’re looking at it?

Fragments of dreams from your childhood and desires are wonderful, but missing those opportunities can be equally painful. Running down deep in your soul are the things you truly want to be, but life has a frustrating way of not allowing you to achieve those goals. For as long as we’re here on Earth; for as long as memories flood this human soul of ours, you’ll always have regrets. These dreams, however, are not the only things that make life worth living. There are people that love you, friends that need you, and the world to win.

Don’t sacrifice the life and wonderful gifts you have now to chase those ideals which may or may not allow you true contentment. Have an amazing life, take risks, and don’t settle for anything that you can’t love dearly. But don’t sacrifice the things that already amazingly define you for a romanticized notion.


This post was originally published on February 1, 2013, and it was one of the better posts I made from that era. Still, it’s been significantly improved from its former state, and it really fits the theme of this week.


weightoftheworld

About the photo: “Weight of the World” We all have days where we feel like this, don’t we? Searching for an escape from the pressures of life. Sometimes it’s too much.


mattalex


 

YES! I wrote to the theme of today’s Daily Post prompt. Now to text the first thought that comes to my mind when I wake up in the morning. Did you know you could do that? Text something to yourself. Try it!


 

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Matthew Estes

Matthew Estes currently exists in the ether between graudate student and full-time worker. One day he hopes to be a full-time novelist and blogger, but until that day comes he spends his time playing video games, eating pizza, and being with his soon-to-be wife. However, he has yet to do all three at the same time. Bucket list stuff, you know.